WOW...Lots of catch-up...

I realize that I neglected to tell you that I took Munchkin to the surgeon......NO SURGERY!! That is awesome news!

Second of all, I want to tell you about a fight that I had with IT last wk..... He did his thing....I fell asleep....(it sucked).....and he asked me if I wanted to go outside with him when he smoked a cig so that I can talk to him....I said no bc I was exhausted and cold...I wanted to go to sleep...he said ok and went outside....I curled up with the comforter and dozed off...the next thing I know, he is yanking the cover off of me and getting in my face yelling that I was sleeping with Mr and I never wanted to spend any time with him....it sucked! I didn't say much except to deny it and tell him that it was 12:30 in the morning and I was tired. He got out his guns and started loading his rifle..then he asked me what was wrong with me (I was shivering) and I said that I was freezing...he cocked (I guess that's what you call it) his gun and said "You won't be in a fucking minute"......then he calmly unloaded the gun and put them up....I have never been more scared of him than I was at that moment.....the look in his eyes and the fact that he was completely calm....then he acted as if everything was completely fine...he held me and told me that he would never hit me again after the Sat that he got drunk.....It's like he's bi-polar or something...he is in a great mood one minute and pissed the next....I never know what to expect from him anymore...It's bad when your 9 and 5 yr olds tell you that it's not fair for him to tell you what to do bc I am a grown woman and should be able to do what I want. That stemmed from last night....he was pissed bc I didn't want to go to the grocery store with him...and instead of going to him Momma's and waiting for him (we had to pick up the kids) I wanted to go to my MawMaw's and he got pissed.....the girls both told me that I should be allowed to go whereever I wanted....that's bad..... I have to get my kids out of it bf it's too late....before the gun incident..I never really deep down thought he was capable of actually killing me....now, the only thing I can think is that he's going to do it and my kids are going to come in and find me...
Later,
AJ