WOW...Lots of catch-up...

I realize that I neglected to tell you that I took Munchkin to the surgeon......NO SURGERY!! That is awesome news!

Second of all, I want to tell you about a fight that I had with IT last wk..... He did his thing....I fell asleep....(it sucked).....and he asked me if I wanted to go outside with him when he smoked a cig so that I can talk to him....I said no bc I was exhausted and cold...I wanted to go to sleep...he said ok and went outside....I curled up with the comforter and dozed off...the next thing I know, he is yanking the cover off of me and getting in my face yelling that I was sleeping with Mr and I never wanted to spend any time with him....it sucked! I didn't say much except to deny it and tell him that it was 12:30 in the morning and I was tired. He got out his guns and started loading his rifle..then he asked me what was wrong with me (I was shivering) and I said that I was freezing...he cocked (I guess that's what you call it) his gun and said "You won't be in a fucking minute"......then he calmly unloaded the gun and put them up....I have never been more scared of him than I was at that moment.....the look in his eyes and the fact that he was completely calm....then he acted as if everything was completely fine...he held me and told me that he would never hit me again after the Sat that he got drunk.....It's like he's bi-polar or something...he is in a great mood one minute and pissed the next....I never know what to expect from him anymore...It's bad when your 9 and 5 yr olds tell you that it's not fair for him to tell you what to do bc I am a grown woman and should be able to do what I want. That stemmed from last night....he was pissed bc I didn't want to go to the grocery store with him...and instead of going to him Momma's and waiting for him (we had to pick up the kids) I wanted to go to my MawMaw's and he got pissed.....the girls both told me that I should be allowed to go whereever I wanted....that's bad..... I have to get my kids out of it bf it's too late....before the gun incident..I never really deep down thought he was capable of actually killing me....now, the only thing I can think is that he's going to do it and my kids are going to come in and find me...
Later,
AJ

Just wanted to clue u in.....

I have had a lot going on....I can't talk about everything right now....I can't wait until I get a divorce!

Ok, first things first....we are almost done moving....notice, I said "almost"..... He won't move anything or put anything up when I'm at work. We still have boxes everywhere at the new house and on our back patio and we still have stuff in the old house. We are moving the boxes tonight and I am going over there to clean tomorrow night after church. That will prob suck....but, that's ok bc it means that I will be away from IT for a few hours....

He is still accusing me of screwing the driver at work.....we will call him Mr. I am not doing anything with Mr by the way. IT just thinks I am bc I don't want to sleep with him. We are at the stage in our marriage where he knows that we are done, but he doesn't want to admit it to himself....so, he is up under my tail and won't leave me alone..he keeps me up all night screwing (completely one sided) and then bitches when I say that I am tired. It's like he's trying to convince himself that everything is ok btwn us as long as we are screwing. He even came to work with me today and stayed with me all flippin day....he had a chance to ride with one of the guys and he wouldn't and he refused to go to the kids school like I promised the kids he would to pay for a library book so that Princess could check out another book.....I had to transfer the phones and go myself...he went with me, of course.

Now, he is pissed bc I wouldn't have sex with him at my office bc we were alone.....I told him that if I didn't want to have sex with him at home, why would I want to have sex with him at the shop?

Later,
AJ

Yet Another Quickie!!!

Ok, here's the scoop...Munchkin isn't going to the dr bc the dr office had to reschedule due to emergency surgeries......and I weighed myself this morning and I weighed 186lb!!! Yeah!!! That means that I have lost a total of 15.4lbs.....and I'm on my period!!
Later,
AJ

A Very Quick Catch-up

Ok, here's the deal....I've had a lot going on!! Last Sunday (Mar 30), I had to take Munchkin to the ER.....she has another staph infection in the same spot as the 2 in Nov. They referred her to a pediatric surgeon to probably do surgery to remove all the scar tissue. Long story short, it has been a long week....They were out of school for spring break last week, and she missed yesterday and today, but hopefully, she will get to go back tomorrow.....She had to have it repacked on Tues with no pain med...it broke my heart! She's a trooper...we even told her about poss having to have more surgery...she's ok with it.

On Sat, the night before I took her to the ER, we were having a cookout...everybody got drunk...I was even tipsy....but I quit drinking before I got drunk...when I felt it I quit...IT kept drinking and ended up showing his ass....I told him I wanted a divorce and took off his rings...I put them back on Mon...bc he wouldn't leave me alone.....but I made it very clear to him that I dont need him....I already pay the bills on my own....I told him that the only reason I may need him is to babysit his kids....he's accusing me of sleeping with a driver at work....I'm not, btw....

We found a house....it's $900.00 per month, too....but if I'm gonna have to struggle, I may as well be struggling for something good.....it's a huge 4 bedroom....the front 2 br are 15x15 or 15x16 and the back 2 br are 12x12 or 12x13.....kitchen, sep laundry room, dining room, 2 ba, and lr....you get the point...it has a huge concrete patio in the back and a huge semi private backyard....even room for a small garden.....I'm very excited....to be honest, I'm scared to death bc of coming up with the money to move on.....but, where there's a will, there's a way...

Later,
AJ

PS...I started....it sucks....