A Quickie

Well....where do I start? We went to Chattanooga Tenn to the Antique Towing and Recovery Museum yesterday. It was a lot smaller than I expected. We took Man with out state tax check. He enjoyed it...that's what matters. My boss (man) was going to quit/got fired from his other job (working at another tow company) so he's back here full time. I think that I am about to get canned. With this company being their only income, I fully expect them to let me go bc the company will probably go under....it's barely treading water now. They won't be able to pay me so I think that they will probably end up letting me go. We shall see. As far as my weekend...it was uneventful. I worked on Sat and was actually off on Sunday...I got to go to church on Sun morning (which was awesome!!!) and then went back on Sun night. My pastor's wife threw him a surprise b-day party after service on Sun night. I really enjoyed spending time with my kids on Sun. I have been fighting with WallyWorld bc on Sat night...I got some groceries and some non-food items. I paid for my groceries with my FS and when I transferred it to the self checkout cashier, the screen went blank. When she got it to come back up, it didn't show my grocery payment and the CSM told me to re-swipe it and when I did, it took it out of my card twice. It still hasn't went back on my card and it was almost $70.00! I am pissed!

I have been thinking about it and have almost decided that I want to sell insurance like Momma. She says that after she starts making good money, she will help me get started. I can't wait bc I am so sick of being broke!!!

Later,
AJ

Another quickie....

Not much has happened since yesterday. My boss/friend went to the dr yesterday bc she was bleeding. The dr. said that she and the baby are fine. She was 5 wks and 5 days yesterday. She'll be due sometime in late September. I am really happy for her.

Also, I don't know if I told u or not..........I did my wkly weigh-in yesterday and..........192lbs!!!! That is a total loss of 9.4lbs so far! I am so excited!!! I can't wait! My goal is to either weigh 175lbs by my birthday or be in a solid size 16 (a 14 would be even better..) I am not quite as worried about the weight as I am about the size. I know that I may not lose as much as I would like bc I may gain muscle weight and muscle weighs more than fat...I'm ok with that. My ultimate goal would be........down to a size 10..........yes, a size 8 would be awesome............and, yes, I would be satisfied with a size 12 or 14........but my ultimate goal is a size 10.........I'll probably change it later. We will see how it goes. I probably have another 40-45 lbs to lose.......at least. Right now, I'm focusing on short term goals. I just want to have to buy some more pants by my birthday in June. And.........I would love to actually be able to take my kids swimming and not be so embarrassed to wear a swim suit. I do own one believe it or not.....but I need to lose for it to look decent. I guess I need to start focusing on doing my crunches and the treadmill....LOL... Seriously, I need to start toning up bc I don't want to have loose skin everywhere. That would almost be worse than the fat. You can already tell that I have lost by looking at my stomach. It used to be huge (well, it's still huge) but now it just hangs there in spots...you can tell that it's not filled out like it was before. I really wish that I could afford a gym membership! Another thing is that I need to start going back to the tanning bed...not to look nasty and "baked".......just to be a little more golden....I'm so white that if I was standing outside at night, an airplane would think I was a runway...Seriously, I am really pale..I need to get a little tan. I went before and I tanned really quick and I loved it...We will see..........

More later, I really need to get to work.

AJ

Playing Catch-up........

Ok, I didn't get to leave early on Wed to take Princess to the eye dr. bc my boss at the Towing Co got mad. I get it....it seems like I'm always leaving early. IT took her and she ended up with glasses like I expected. I had to go meet them to pay the place $149.00 on top of what her insurance paid. I was not a happy camper about the money. I worked with the pain on Wed and Thurs. By the time I got off from the Buffet on Thurs night, I could barely breathe. I broke down and went to the dr. on Fri morning. The wrecker service wasn't happy bc I had to be out the entire day on Fri from both jobs. I was already off on Sat for Munchkin's party. The party went ok. She only had one friend from school show up but it was good. She enjoyed it. I went to work on Sun (was supposed to work from 12-7) and ended up getting sent home around 4:00. Before I left, I was accused of stealing tips. I DIDN'T! I would never take money from someone else. It's not in my nature. The "head waitress" said that I had been up front for 2 hours and that I had to have made more than $5.00 in 2 hours. Well, first of all it had only been about 1 hour. Second, most of the tables that left in that hour were from the waitresses that were already up front (I was taking over so they could go home). I only had a couple of tables leave. I was mainly setting people up. I ended up getting sent home bc I was sick and it pissed her off bc it was around 4:00-4:15 and she was still there and I was getting sent home. She was supposed to have gotten off at 3:00. All I can say is "It sucks to be her". So, from now on, I refuse to share tips with anyone...not that anyone would want to share tips with me now bc she made me look like the resident thief. What makes it so bad is that I have to keep going in there and working with all of them. I don't have the option of telling them to buzz off. I need that job bc IT won't work. He said he was going to apply at another wrecker service today, but he decided to call first to see if he needed CDLs. Of course the job opening requires CDLs. So, instead of looking for something else, he is staying close to home in case his daddy needs him to come get him bc he is taking his gas tank off today. WHATEVER! Now, he says that he will go to truck driving school and get his CDLs even if he has to go over the rd. Yeah right! I'll believe it when I see it. Oh, yeah..what the dr told me on Fri. I have a pinched muscle in my back bc I am so stressed and tense. She gave me 30 muscle relaxers and told IT to give me massages....Like that's going to happen!! On top of my back hurting....I woke up sick on Fri. It wasn't in my chest or anything on Fri, but I feel conjested now so I think it probably is now.

Story of my life...
AJ

Yep...We have confirmation...IT is a jerk!!

Last night when I got home from work at almost 10:00, I was exhausted. I was sleepy and achy. My whole body hurt. It was Munchkin's birthday (I can't believe that my baby is 5!!!!) and I only got to see her for a little bit when IT brought her to eat at the buffet with me. I couldn't even sit down with her bc I was working. I missed her so much! I miss all of my kids soooo much! I never get to see them bc I am always working! Back to the point....I put my Smart One in the microwave and then took it to bed. Munchkin got to stay up late and sleep witm me since it was her b-day. The bed was covered in clothes and laundry baskets (full of clothes) and I just pushed them over, got in the bed, and pulled the covers over us. I didn't have the strength to move them. IT came in there and said something about me not cleaning off the entire bed. I said I would in a minute and then I fell asleep. He came in there and woke me up and I had to help him clean off the bed and make it. He insinuated that I was lazy bc I didn't clean off the whole bed. I told him I worked 24-7 and was exhausted and hurting....what was his excuse....did he sit too long? He got pissed.

My boss at the buffet offered me full time there if I quit the wrecker service bc she said she could see that it was killing me to work 2 jobs.....IT doesn't care. He's with his daddy hauling junk today. I will give him credit that he went to eat breakfast with Man this morning. He goes to eat with Princess tomorrow morning. At least he's doing that. Last night, he said he did something he wasn't proud of. He said that he "accidentally" pulled Princess' hair last night. I don't totally believe it was an accident, but I wasn't there...I can't prove it. If I seriously believed that it wasn't an accident or if I had proof...I would leave him on the spot no matter what!...............but, I don't know. I feel sooo bad. I'm not there for my kids the way I want to be or the way that they deserve for me to be...and I can't do anything about it. I am missing out on so much. I am missing out on seeing my kids grow up. Munchkin is going on her 2nd field trip this morning and I am missing it just like I did the first one. I am missing everything. I am at my breaking point. I cry at commercials. I cry in the shower.....I cry all the time. I am crying as I write this sitting in the office at work. I am so stressed. I'm not sure how much more I can take.

And my house....that's another thing. My house is destroyed. IT won't do anything. His attitude is that when I do something to help him in the house, he will do something...he shouldn't have to do it all by himself. I'm not even there long enough to mess up. We have another birthday party this weekend and he won't even help clean for the party. He spent Mon and Tues with his Momma and Daddy and he is conveniently gone today...Wednesday is his junk day. I am leaving today at lunch bc Princess has an appt with an eye dr at 1:45. I will try to clean some today but I don't know how much I will be able to get done with my back hurting....it's radiating into my shoulder, up to my neck, and down into my back. It is seriously painful. I won't be off again until the day of the party.

Later,
AJ

Just a quickie.....

It's Monday again...that means time to weigh myself again.....I should probably wait until tomorrow bc I've been doing it on Tues...........I had on pants and I had already had a cup of joe so...it may not be exactly accurate.....it was 194.8.....Yeah! I'm going to do it again in the morning to make sure it's accurate! If it's accurate....that means a total weight loss of 6.6 lbs in 3 weeks.....I'm so excited!!!!

I just found out that my boss (who just happens to be one of my oldest friends) at the towing company is prego! She was told that she has endemetriosis and couldn't have any more kids. I really hope and pray that everything goes well with her. She goes to the dr. tomorrow at 3:00 to confirm it. I'm happy for her...

Another thing that blew my mind this morning is that she is afraid that her step-daughter who is only 14 (I think) is prego. She was supposed to start on the 1st at the same time as her and she hasn't started yet and she thinks that she's been messing around with a neighbor boy.

More later.. I have to go fight with the Post Office....and to the bank.....

AJ

I know I've been ignoring you...Sorry

This is just a quickie post. We are moving....tonight and this weekend. yeah....see the excitement? I wanted to wait until March to move, but if I would be able to come up with the money to move, then why not pay rent? The point is that I can't come up with the money in March....so, we're moving now. I am leaving work at 4:30 to sign the lease. It's a 3 bedroom/2bath apt...not bad for the money, just smaller than what we need.........but, at least it's something I can realistically afford on my own.

BTW..I weighed myself this morning....I know I shouldn't have, but....it was good. It said 195.6....so far, that's a total loss of 5.8lbs...I think...my brain's asleep right now LOL.....

Later,
AJ